Sunday, September 30, 2007

God's Beauty

My daughter took this picture while on her vacation in the Netherlands. She was at a beach at the North Sea. I thought it was so beautiful. I love being able to go to the beach and just sit and stare at the ocean. I'm able to leave all cares and worries behind for just a little bit and just focus on some of the beauty that God has created. I haven't been able to go to the beach for quite a while now but hopefully that'll change soon. I desperately need to get out of this house before I lose my mind. I love my grandchildren but a grandmother isn't supposed to be with her grandchildren 7 days a week!

Saturday, September 29, 2007

Time to Cut the Grass

Well today is Saturday and since nobody else thinks they know how to mow the grass I guess it is time to put my tennis shoes on and get my self outside and start mowing the grass. We don't have a very big yard so you wouldn't think it would be very hard to mow. But... to start off one of my X son-in-laws took the grass catcher off of the lawnmower and got rid of it and then the little thing on the side of the mower that blows the grass and dirt away from you, yeah you guessed it he removed that also. So now when you mow grass everything blows back all over you from your face down to your feet. So when you come in from the mowing you are not only hot and sweaty but you are covered in dirt and grass. Oh, and did I mention that the back yard is sort of a hill so that makes mowing the grass even harder. But, I use the word grass very loosely I should say weeds because we actually have very little grass and and abundance of weeds to mow. Then to top everything off the youngest adult in the house will come in about 5:30 pm and say "Mom did you mow the grass again" I will say yes I did and she will say, "You shouldn't do that" to which I will say well the lawnmower doesn't start itself and run itself around the yard by itself. So how do you think the yard is going to get mowed if I don't get out there and mow it. Guess maybe the good fairy will show up and mow it for us. Yeah right!!

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Chocolates, etc.

I'm so glad my daughter is home from the Netherlands. She was only gone for two weeks but to me it seemed like two years. We're such close friends so when she's away, I miss her terribly. She made up for it though. She brought me back my favorite dark chocolate as well as a two beautiful purses that she bought for me. I don't know what I love more...the chocolate or the purses. The purses I'll be able to get a lot of usage from but the chocolates...well those I will ration out as though they were purchased with WWII ration coupons. Delicious European chocolates don't come my way often! Hmm, think I'll go have a piece now!

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Your Birthday

Strange but this seems to describe me to a "T"

Your Birthdate: May 16

You're incredibly introverted and introspective. You live inside your head.

You spend a lot of alone time meditating and thinking.

People see you as withdrawn, and at times they are right.

You are caring and deep, but it may be difficult for you to show this side of yourself.

Your strength: Your original approach to thinking

Your weakness: You tend to shy away from others

Your power color: Pale blue

Your power symbol: Wavy line

Your power month: July


Today was my granddaughter's 9th birthday. I can't imagine where 9 years have gone. It seems like only yesterday that she was 10 minutes old and I was holding her in my arms telling her that she was "special" I have told my grandchildren that on a very frequent basis I want them to know that they are indeed special. So many people try to make their children and grandchildren feel like they are just junk and that they have absolutely no worth in life. Guess when you get down to the bottom line that is the way I grew up never feeling like I had any worth at all. As a matter of fact that is pretty much the way I feel even at my age right now. (which I won't give our but let's just say I have been able to vote for many many many years now.) Right now I would say I am so far down in the dumps and feel so low that to even look up and see the bottom is totally impossible for me to even imagine. My husband and I either gave away or sold practically everything we owned including our Pickup truck and furniture and move to the country of Haiti to be missionaries. Well without going into all the details and saying anything bad about anybody we are back in the states and living with our two daughters, three grandchildren another single mother and her two children. I know that we need to get our own place somehow. But to do that I need a job and to get a job we need a vehicle but, to get a vehicle I need a job for money but to get the job we need the vehicle but to get the vehicle..... I guess by now you get the picture I think it is called a catch 22. So say by some miracle we get the vehicle and I get the job then we need to save money to find a place to live and then we have no furniture at all. Well I guess we do have some furniture. I have a futon and my husband has a recliner that he doesn't like. But we are getting ready to celebrate our 40th wedding anniversary. (ok, so I just told you if you take the time to just about figure out how old I am) and we are right back to where we were before we got married. But then we were young and ready to take on the world and had our whole future in front of us. Now it seems like our whole life is behind us and some days I am not sure it is even worth getting out of bed. The only thing I have right now is that one of my daughters is in Holland visiting her very good friend and she has bought me a purse and promises to buy me other gifts there. She tells me if I don't get out of bed she will just keep the purse for herself and she knows how much I love purses. Well I will try to write tomorrow and maybe then I will be in a more cheerful mood. Probably not but well there is always hope I guess. Oh, by the way my granddaughter had a very happy birthday and is now officially 9 going on 18 she thinks.

Friday, September 7, 2007

Long Time No Write

Well, it has been a little bit since I posted and for that I am sorry. "Sorry" just what does sorry mean? One of my grandsons got in trouble today for reasons that I will not bore anyone with. But, the first thing out of his mouth is "sorry". Well again with not going into his offense I will say so far he has lost his game boy privileges for the rest of the month and he has to write a page on what it really means to be sorry. He is 8 years old and he has to find out what meaning sorry actually means and write about it and hopefully at the end of his writing he will maybe know the true meaning of "sorry". I know from my life that the words "I'm sorry" can sometimes be the two most hollow words of the English language. I still as an adult have a major problem with someone telling me they are sorry. My thought are don't tell me you are sorry, show me you are sorry. Then maybe I can believe you and actually think you are sorry for whatever it is you are apologizing for. But to just say I am sorry really doesn't carry much weight for me. I have to actually see that someone is sorry and for me that is not doing again what ever it is you are handing out the "sorry" for. Well, what do you think about this issue?

Saturday, September 1, 2007


I have a new addiction. I am hooked on finding free samples on the internet. I don't get out of the house much so for me, there is nothing better than going to the mailbox and finding a little box with some small treasure in it. Today I got a free deodorant sample as well as two free samples of some snack cracker. It brightened my day. I've just signed up for a free book by Chuck Swindoll for my husband. He'll like that. He doesn't get much mail and he's always griping about that fact. This will shut him up for a few days at least!