Saturday, September 14, 2013
Lets see where to start, well, a little over three years ago my husband and moved from Pennsylvania back to Florida to live with our two daughters and three grandchildren. In that situation there have been some great times, some good times and to be honest some bad times. I do believe that the great and good times far outweigh the bad times. As a matter of fact I know they do. Last night for example we went to the high school football game to see one of my grandsons march in the band. Their band has over 300 students in it and to say they are awesome would truly be an understatement.
But, to some of the bad, My husband got sick a little over a year after we moved back and had to have 4 stints put into his heart to try to unblock his arteries. He was never the same after this procedure and then this last January 24th he just instantly passed away from a massive heart attack. We were married for 45 years and it was a couple of weeks after his 66th birthday. To say I am lost would be another understatement in my life. We were together from the time we were in high school ourselves and to now not have him feels like someone just ripped my heart out of my chest. He was always a very outgoing man and I was always the one hiding behind him. So now there is nowhere to run and definitely no where to hide or more specific no one to hide behind.
I am trying with much difficulty to move forward with my life I started to say move on but I don't believe moving on quite describes life anymore, just moving forward and sometimes actually taking a step backward. But I have in the last two months enrolled in college. That is right I am 65 years old and have finally decided to go to college and get a degree in accounting. I can't say it is easy but then again nothing worth doing is always going to be easy. I am having to learn how to study again and to take the dreaded tests but with the help of my daughters I am plugging away at it.
Next, Randy (my husband) and I were involved for many years working in missions in the nation of Haiti. I have not been back to Haiti since 2006. In a little over a week I will be going back to Haiti for a week to stay in Fond Parisien where we last worked. To say I am nervous about going into Haiti without Randy in front of me would be a BIG understatement. But I am going to do it even though some moments I tell myself I am so stupid for doing this.
So this is where my life is at this point and if I can keep up with things, (family, work and school) I will try to keep some updates here on my blog. If anyone reads it then that is all good and if nobody reads it then that too is all good.
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
A lot has happened in my life in the time I have not been active here. First 3 years ago my husband and I moved back to Florida from Pennsylvania to live with our daughters and 3 grandchildren. That in itself took some adjustments for all of us. To be honest I think we are still adjusting to the changes.
Then on January 24, 2013 my husband of 45 years suddenly just passed away. I was at work with one of my daughters and the other daughter was home here with her dad. She came downstairs to fix him some lunch and he had already passed away. She called us at work and the emergency crew. There was nothing they were able to do for him. They said he passed away immediately from a severe heart attack. He had not been in great health for the prior year but to say we were expecting this would be so totally wrong. Somehow we made it through the next few days after that and somehow I have been dragging myself through the almost 4 months since this. My husband and I had been married for 45 years and he had just celebrated his 66th birthday on January 15th.
I have gone through so many emotions since that day. I have been mad, sad, anything I could feel I have felt. Lately I have found myself in a minor state of depression. I would cry at the drop of a hat and sometimes had no idea as to why I was even crying. But last night I think I turned a corner. For the first time in almost 4 months I did not go to bed and lay there and cry. I have decided that tomorrow is my 65th birthday and I am going to have a great birthday and I am going to have a great rest of my life and I don't plan on dying anytime soon. I want to be around to not only see my grandchildren grow up and get married but I intend on seeing great grandchildren. So today is the first day of my new not depressed life. I don't actually know if anybody will read this post but to be honest I don't really care. If someone does that is great but I didn't write this for anyone else I wrote this for ME! If you read and want to make a comment go for it.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
The new baby is a little girl so I am expecting to get a very special announcement. It was something we were talking about today and she showed me a picture of the new addition she had on her telephone. I suggested using a picture of the baby on the birth announcement making it very special and something that friends and family would definitely want to keep for a keepsake.
I actually envy my friend and her family. My grandchildren are getting older and I remember when they were born and how excited we were at the new arrival in the family. I can remember smooching and loving on the babies. Now my grandchildren wind up saying "Nannie" with a grimace if I want a hug or a kiss or any show of love. They are at the ages where it is not cool to show the affection for an adult especially to their grandmother.
I must confess that from time to time I do sneak up behind one of my grandchildren and put a big hug on them and give them a kiss on their cheek. I drives them wild but it is my job to drive them wild and keep them on their toes. Tough job but somebody has to do it. So it might as well be me as anyone else.
Well a few hours later the lady came back in and reminded me that she was the one who had purchased the three candles and said she needed to get another candle for a gift and since she had mentioned before that she only buys vanilla scent would I help her pick out a good scent for the gift candle. I said sure and went over and after we smelled them all I told her my favorite pick. She said great. As she was paying for it I mentioned that if it was a gift we could gift wrap it for her free of charge. She said that would be great.
Well, after the gift was wrapped she came over and said ok I have my gift wrapped and it is for you. I have to say I had no idea at all that this was her plan to give me the candle. I said are you serious? She said yes she was. So I said why are you buying this for me. She said she just felt like she should come back in and buy one for me and give it to me as a gift. I have to say when she left I had tears running down my face. I don't know when someone has done something that nice for me for a long long time. So my day ended pretty nice. Think I will light my new candle tonight and enjoy it.
Guest post of the week by Brittany Booker
I can’t wait until the “Project Runway” season finale tonight that I will be watching on CLEARTVbundle. Project Runway is my all time favorite show and this past season has been the “All-Star” edition. I just can’t wait to see how things turn out. The cool thing about the “All-Star” edition is that it is people from previous seasons that were asked to leave and didn’t win. They were all really talented though. When they were invited back, they knew the drill and had been cultivating their skills for quite some time. The challenges were more difficult and the drama was bigger than previous seasons. It just always amazes me how talented some of the people on the show are. I have always wanted to learn how to sew, but have never had the time or a teacher to do so. The contestants on “Project Runway” can usually just sew something without any thought of a pattern. They are able to design and fit garments in one day. Each person has their own unique style and calling card. I think that the finale is going to be awesome tonight!
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Thursday, August 18, 2011
There are three grandchildren so both my daughters and I will be going today with them We will each take one child and go meet their various teachers and get their schedules for the next year.
I think they are all ready to get back to school. Hope they all have a good year and do good in school.
I wish I had found this site called http://www.blueskyscrubs.com/ before we went there it would have really made my life so much simpler. I had to go to several shops to find all the sets I wanted to take with me. Because I wanted enough scrub sets to last me for three weeks at a time. You never knew in Haiti when you would have the time to do laundry so I did not need to be worried every week about getting my scrubs washed. So to have found everything I needed from one place and to have that place on the internet would have been great to say the least.
I know now what I will do the next time I need to purchase several or even one pair of scrubs. I will get the job done via the internet.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
All in all vacation has been good. The only problem is that is will end soon and we have to go back to work. Sure hate that part. I really am not looking forward to going back to work. Just hope I get my regular schedule back and they don't mess things up for me. Guess I will know soon enough.
Sunday, August 14, 2011
They have to get their business plan all put together and figure out all of the processes that they need to take in order to launch their catering business. One of they things they need to accomplish, once they have other things in order is to advertise. I really believe that a advertising agency has come such a long way from what it used to be of simply TV or the newspaper. Now I really think that advertising on the internet is the way to go. I don't know of many people who do not access the internet on a daily basis. I know I am one who is on the internet daily but do not watch TV on a daily basis and I can't tell you the last time I actually read a newspaper.
So even though they are not actually ready at this moment to actually advertise their dream business they are in the process of searching out the best Advertising Agency to do the job for them when the time comes. I have to say I envy them of the excitement they are feeling and who knows they just might let me do something in the business. But my luck it will only be to wash up the dirty dishes.