Change is coming

It is now time for change in our lives. Change is defined as (something) different from what it is or from what it would be if left alone. Well things around here have to change because they cannot be left alone. I also think change can be good and in the end this change will be good for all of us. But nevertheless change sometimes is painful. In some ways the change that is looming on the horizon for this household will be joyous and in some ways this change is going to be painful. The change that is there is that it is time for all of us to go our separate ways. The good thing is that I think the "Mother" of the 3 year old and the 20 month old is getting ready to move out first. That is good in the respect that we are all so tired of putting up with her moodiness and her bitchy attitude. But one of the bad things about that is that she is going to stiff Joy for rent for the remainder of the time we will be living here which will probably be about the end of May. That means that Joy has to cover the rent and utilities all on her own. This is where I worry because right now Randy and I have no income. I make a little bit and I stress little bit with my blog but not near enough to even begin to help out with any expenses here in the house. That is one of the hardest things about all of this change for me to cope with. The fact alone that we are living with out daughters and don't have our own home right now but also the fact that our daughter has to provide basically everything for us. That is hard for a parent to take (as least it is for me) I never have had a problem with one of our daughters needing some help from time to time. But I just never expected that I would need my daughter to basically support us. So I guess that is my biggest issue right now in my life. But back to the changes. We all look forward to the "Mother" moving out and to be honest I will not miss the 3 year old either. But I will miss the 20 month old like crazy. I will miss when she wants something and she isn't getting what she wants hearing her cry and call out for Nannie which is what she calls me although she doesn't get out the whole Nannie she only says Annie but it is me she wants. Plus Jill has basically raised her since she was a newborn so it is going to be very hard for Jill when the baby is no longer around. I am going to also have a hard time not being with my grandchildren and seeing them all of the time. Don't get me wrong sometimes they really drive me up a wall. But, when all is said and done I love being with them and with us all moving around. I know they are going to be a little farther away from us and we will probably be lucky if we see them once a week. I am not sure I am ready for that. Then Jill, well she is going to move to Holland and for those who read my blog and are her friends in Holland please take good care of her for me. I really, really, really hate her being that far away from me. I know she has her own life to live and I know she really wants to make this move and I will support her all the way. I just don't have to like the idea of her being that far away from me. Where I don't know when I will see her the next time. So now you know some of the good and some of the bad about the changes coming in this household.